Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Capitulated
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Return to Reality
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Soar
Monday, June 14, 2010
Restored
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Against the Grain
Monday, June 7, 2010
The Twilight Attack
Anguished and alone, burning the ceiling with my endless gaze
I lay thinking of what was,
What could be
And all that will not.
The passion’s I’ve given up on, opportunity’s seeped through my grasp
The dreams I’ve failed to fulfil, discarded
My mind races with fresh thoughts,
Of how I could change my past, how to right my wrongs, oh hindsight how I loath you
Unfruitful I lay, along in anguish,
Trying to break free my mind of the now,
Over the misery of the day,
Worrying what the next will bring.
The darkness sets in,
Tossing and turning,
An eruption of new doubts,
Uncertainty kisses my brow.
I cry for help, for forgiveness, for love
For peace to wash over me
I stand against the lies and half truths
I brace myself for the onslaught of misery and doubt
Armed with wisdom and mercy, His battle cry is heard
To my side he charges with a fire in his eyes
Truth he yells into my life, concert reinforcements against the barrage.
Love and acceptance he whispers into my life, peace soon follows
I try to visualize peace, the word my sound mind
Try to cast away the confliction, dwell on he who is good
Weariness washes over me, comfort and love my embrace
My eyes begin to falter.
Relief will comes with the slumber,
Wiping my slate clean, making my spirit like new.
In the dawn a new I will rise, the day to come I will survive
Only for the onslaught to start again before I lay down to sleep.
Underneath
Loneliness eats away at my soul
Over and over again I ponder on the worldly
Never to find the solution
Every day the same, robotic routine
Living a safe life, never taking risks
Inventing new reasons to make myself believe the lies
Nobody care, nobody wants you, why would they
Endless arguments of self worth
Systematically eroding my own sanity
Silently destroying my will, my passion, My life
Friday, June 4, 2010
The Storm Within
Caleb's Psalm
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Dreamers Vista
Rebuttal
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Saturation
The Man in the Mud
The Wind whipped and danced around the lonely soul, still and sombre with shoulder hunched
Standing in the gluggy mud with a hollow stare upon his face, dispar and death wash over him
At the edge of the ancient brick well, tattered, beaten left forgotten. A mirror of the man in the mud
Dreaming of falling, plummeting, descending into the dark abyss before him
What do I have to live for?
Who is there to care?
I’ve created an abomination already.
And the fall is but a dare.
The Storm around him deepens, and the tempest begins to roar with thunder.
Hope of the man standing in mud began to diminish as the rain falls heavy around him soaking into his core.
With little effort he raised a leg and on the edge he stood all his weight bearing down on the weakening brick.
Beneath his feet it shuddered with the use, and crumbs tumble into the hole, bit by bit it beings to break.
A voice resounded in his head
I love you; Don’t you understand it is you I adore?
Run into my arms, so I can hold you once more.
The man does not know of the lies and truths filling the air around him, wielding unseen weapons of deceit and Love
They do not fight for land, power or money, but the decision the man will make; fall, or keep on living.
There battle is violent and relentless, neither side wanting to concede, both with different motives, one of love the other of greed.
You are honest and loyal
You are a lair and a cheat
You are Mine and I love you
Attacks of misery and pain he knows all to well, Confusion sieges upon his mind
Claws digging deep into his spine edging him closer, the pain of living, reminding him of what he was.
A wall of warmth and light and peace holding him from plunging into the deep. A comforting embrace of what he could be
No you can’t your too far gone.
Nothing is too big for me and my new friend.
NO this is not happening, it’s is suppose to be the end!
The Howling wind begins to slow, as he comes to grip with what he’s worth, The torrential downpour resides to a drizzle as the sky starts to clear.
The man takes a step back off the edge of the well, as the wall crumble and caves, bricks and mortar tumbling to the swampy bottom with a sick splash.
How the man smiles as the weight of his sin is lifted away, he now stands tall, alive and ready, the man standing on the clay.
Light streams upon his face.
Following the thick cloud that ebbs away,
That swirling mass of disarray,
Off so he can help some lonely new prey.
The Man V God
Monday, May 31, 2010
The Battle of the Two-Hearted Man
Courageous, bold, captivating, calm
Silent, sad, hollow, shunned
Praised, Loyal, proud, Patient
Bleak, broken, alone, bruised
Strong, wise, smart, sure,
Mellow, miserable, pained, mundane
Bold, true, brave, boisterous
wounded, wishing, shaken, wasteful
Tentative, honest, trying, thoughtful
From God, With Love
Fire burns in the Pit of his being
Sickness ebbs at his heart
Compassion and Love his undoing
The misery of being alone
How can I speak when all I want to say is I love you
Yet there is no one to reply
How shall a walk when the only direction I want to travel is toward you
Yet you walk away
When will I see your beauty I created
When can I touch the soft skin that I shaped
When shall I hear your sweet voice call my name
When shall I drown in the magic of your eyes
I Cry out for you to love
My whole being is love
Why is love the one thing your not capable of
My sprit soars to meet with you
Longing to commune
Why do you turn your head
Looking searching peering into the unknown
Turn with your heart
Search not with your worldly mind
Search with your soul, scream for mine
How long will it take for you to come back to me
My heart says I have been yearning too long
Days, weeks, maybe or even years
I will be waiting, calling
I want to cradle you
Comfort you
Shelter you
Love You
Run into my arms