Sustenance

Why cant life be the same, Why cant you let go

Massing torrents of emotions, colours swirling adding to the pain

My heart boils with frustration, the beast wanting to escape

Rage set loose, anger, pain and fire its release....

Why wont the monster calm, what keeps fuelling its lust.

Pressure multiplying....

I want to explode to let loose my anger on the world, my hurt my loneliness,

No one seems to care, to understand my heart is not my own, its been torn and and tossed.

Beaten and broken, it can no longer live inside of me.

My paroxysm is not at you, not at me but at my dissimilar views, my understandings.

I want to be whole again, but I can never be.

The battle I'm in is now for eternity, the pain I feel will swell and grow,

Until my task fulfilled I must harbour this encumbrance.

Chain my monster and shoulder the mass of the broken hearted.

Lost Peace

What happened to the quiet, the still the silent

When did this torment break out

like a pond littered with falling stones

my mind ripples, spreading in a multitude of directions

Ricocheting of the edge and back into the fray

the torrent of doubts, willing themselves in

Who brings the quiet, who stills the waves

Finding truth in disarray

Unbeatable

Through the ashes, through the pain, Love will rule again,

It can not stay down, it cannot let others reign.

Through the anguish through the strain, Love will manage to conquer again.

Through the dark, through the deceit, Love will find a way

Hope

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” - Romans 8:28

Betrayal and Rebuilding

Morality doesn't exist, where are the honest ones

Integrity seems hollow, where are the honest ones

Confrontability is a myth, where are the honest ones

Love is not returned, where are the honest ones

They are in hiding, skulking from the lies and deceit. Not wanting to be hurt, frail creatures they are.

Only a few stand strong, where are they, where are the strong ones who stand honest and true, beings of legend.

They are beaten and broken taking the pain on there shoulders, strength fleeting hope fading.

Why do they stand so alone in a sea of peers, they stand alone amongst the fake, the hollow the weak.

Come together honest ones, seek each other, stand out. show your openness your confrontability your integrity, your morality your love.

Don't be taken for granted, don't sell yourself short honest ones, your are needed, you may be let down but stand firm in your truth.

Morality doesn't exist, where are the honest ones. Change the wicked

Integrity seems hollow, where are the honest ones. Stand up to the false

confrontability is a myth, where are the honest ones. Don't shut yourself from the world

Love is not returned, where are the honest ones. Love as your are loved. through the pain, the hurt and the lies. Love

Anguish

Breaking, grinding, dry and deserted

Alone and empty, contemplating why

Confusion, frustration massed as one

and overwhelming sensation on abandonment

waiting is for nothing, the future uncertain.

Change is imminent and painful, the taste of bile rich and potent swamps my soul, pure bitterness at the foolishness of some.

Stumped, silenced, distraught and sorrowful.

When will the pain subside, when will the dark become light.